Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Changing your Mindset
Anyone can lose weight. Anyone can eat healthy. Anyone can exercise. Anyone can want to change.
In the beginning, this is what I did. I ate healthy, I exercised, I wanted to change and I lost weight. But it wasn't until around 4 months did I truly change. My brain craved it. My body wanted more intense workouts. I needed to get in my workout or I would be frustrated with myself. Also at around that time, when I would cheat, I would get so sick. My body couldn't tolerate the "poison" as thats what it was to my body and still is.
In June of 2013, we went on a family vacation to Disneyland. I was so nervous leading up this week about my exercise and weight loss goals because I would be living out of a suitcase with an agenda of things to do each day that weren't part of my normal routine. I was nervous I would get off track and not want to start back up again when I got back. I went into the vacation thinking I will let myself cheat because I am on vacation and I won't worry too much about exercise because we will be walking a bunch every day, but I need to spend time with my family and not be so caught up in my own fitness goals. That week was very fun and I did eat a lot of foods that I don't eat now. I didn't get up early each morning like I thought I would and go exercise before our day started. I was okay with it because for the first time in my life I realized I had control. I knew that when I got back from California, I would start right back up. My body and mind wanted boundaries and restrictions. I almost felt a sense of relief knowing that my weight loss wasn't some phase but actually a life style change that I had made and was going to continue.
During that time, I saw the most change happen in me. I had lost about 40 lbs by then with the goal of losing at least 70 more. I was still fresh into my journey. When I got back I weighed myself immediately and gained around 9 lbs for that week.
When starting this journey, you have to fully commit. Think of it as something you will do for the rest of your life. I know it can be depressing because I used to think that I just wanted to eat normal (what does that even mean?) but my normal now is the healthy eating and treating myself or cheating is the food I used to eat every day that made me obese. I know that time was the only thing that could let this happen as with it all it doesn't happen over night. I promise you though, its worth it.