I bought this dress online the other day in a size smaller than I normally wear: a size 8. I knew that is was stretchy material and so I could probably pull it off, but I was nervous for it to come because my size 10 clothes are getting a little big. If the 8 didn't fit, I'd be a little sad. Luckily it did and I love it. A year ago, I would never have imagined buying clothes with a single digit. Its a bit surreal buying smaller sizes. It hasn't really hit me fully that I have lost so much weight. I still see myself as being heavy. Its a weird mind trick the brain plays on you. However, I am more confident than ever, so I know that I am realizing that this weight is off of me.
A year ago, I would have dreaded taking a walk or going on a hike. Now, I look forward to that challenge because I know my body is working hard and that is when I make the most change. In the gym, when I am sweating and working hard, I feel so good about myself. It's weird how so much can change in a year. I look forward to pushing myself out of my comfort zone. I think thats all I really do now is go beyond what I think I can do.
I am also not focusing on the scale as much as I used to. I am not even really measuring as much either because I don't want to worry about that. The more I worry, the more stressed it makes me. I feel so good when I run a farther distance or faster times. Those are the goals I can stay in charge of. The number on the scale is not something I can control ALL the time.