After high school, I was still over weight, but becoming more confident in myself since I knew I had more to offer than just my appearance. I dated my now husband who has never made me feel ugly but has actually always built me up. When I got pregnant with my first, I started pregnancy in the 270's. I had tried for several months before that trying to lose weight, but honestly had no idea what I was doing. At only 5'7", I knew that I needed to weigh a considerable amount less to have a healthy pregnancy. I only gained 20 lbs with that pregnancy because I tried my best to be very careful. Once I had her, I didn't really think about losing weight because I was so busy trying to figure out how to be a mom. When she was 7 months old, I found out I was pregnant again. I was very excited, but I knew that this pregnancy was going to be tough because my body was obese. Every month, I had to go to the hospital to get ultrasounds of my son because my blood pressure was always high. They were worried he wouldn't grow at a normal rate because of my blood pressure. He ended up being 10lbs. 3 oz and I even delivered at 39 weeks. During my entire pregnancy, I knew that my weight was the main issue for these problems and I knew I had to do something to fix this.
Once I delivered him and I was okay to go back to normal activities, I started doing Zumba 3-4x a week. I lost 40 lbs in about 5 months. I was feeling very confident in myself and wanted to keep losing. I changed all my eating habits and treated myself every now and again, but it wasn't consistent. Finally towards the middle of the year, we started house hunting and if you have ever been through that process, its extremely stressful. Once we finally bought the house and everything was finally finished, I knew that I did not want to weigh myself. In February of 2013, I stepped on the scale and not only gained weight, but I gained everything back and then some. I was in complete denial during the months leading up to that and seeing those numbers on the scale put a dagger through my heart. All that hard work was basically for nothing
On February 21, 2013, I knew that it was now or never. If I ever wanted to bring another child into this world or even live long enough to be a healthy active mom, I HAD TO DO SOMETHING! I started walking every day. I had a double stroller and would put my 1 and 2 year old and just start walking 2-3 miles a day. It wasn't much, but for me it was. I used my fitness pal to calculate my calories for each day and that has been my life saver. I started to eat clean, fresh and lean foods. It was extremely difficult to start and every day is still a struggle. However, each day started, I just felt better than the last and that alone just kept me plugging a long. By the first month, I had lost 10 lbs. I knew I was doing something right so I just kept trying.
In August, I did my first 5k and ran the entire race. I had so much pride for myself that day because never did I imagine that would happen. That same night I finished the race, I signed up for a half marathon in October and started training the next week. That was the best thing I could have done for myself: structured, goal-oriented training. I finished my half marathon, ran the entire thing in 2:36. I felt an immense joy finishing that race, knowing all the time, effort, tears, hardship, and love I put into that training. There were days even weeks where I just wanted to give up. I was so drained from tending my two small children, that I just wanted to eat ice cream as a treat at the end of the day. Some days I did give in, but I knew that if I did that, it would hinder my progress and just make me feel so guilty.
Now, almost 11 months later, I have now lost 94 lbs and feel more motivated than ever to reach a goal weight that I never thought was something I could accomplish. In the beginning, I obviously had a weight I wanted to be, but knew that I could never get there, or what I thought at least. With each month that passed, my goal was getting more and more real. I hope to be 165 someday. I am pretty close considering all the time I have put in these last few months.